Whats on my mind 05-14-09

First off right now... thinking about how the hell I can forget my memory stick for 3-4 days straight... I want to work on the website changes from the new design I made for my friends site and I keep on forgetting the damn memory stick at home... I even took it out of the PC this morning and was planning to bring it and I forgot to stick the damn shit inside my pocket.... /angry/

** breath in / breath out / relax **

Last night tried sleeping with the smoky quartz on my forehead... I think I saw a dream... I know I saw something, must of been a dream... but I don't remember anything from it... weird stuff... normally I remember the dream right after I wake up and I write it down on my notebook or online sites... but this one I completely don't remember... and I know I saw something... I remember I saw something but don't remember what I saw... what the hell is that...

You know in India how those ladies have the red dot in their forehead... is that for them to waken their third eye?
"The bindi is arguably the most visually fascinating of all forms of body decoration. Hindus attach great importance to this ornamental mark on the forehead between the two eyebrows -- a spot considered a major nerve point in human body since ancient times. Also loosely known as 'tika', 'pottu', 'sindoor', 'tilak', 'tilakam', and 'kumkum', a bindi is usually a small or a big eye-catching round mark made on the forehead as adornment." from about.com - http://hinduism.about.com/od/bindis/a/bindi.htm 

Meh... guess not... it says its for good luck type of stuff for marriage... or maybe can take it so it's a good sign you put that Bindi on their forehead and since you know something is there your mind focuses there and for some it will open the third eye and be able to see which guys have good vibration/aura around them or something... my guess...

What else is on my mind right now hmmm... ** closes eyes **
I see a light, I can see the shape of my hand/arms glowing white/gold light...
** opens eyes **

Meh... nothing much right now... maybe I should try that more often.... way to channeling? LOL would be cool if I wrote stuff I don't remember...

Sleeping with crystal on head - Aqua Aura Quartz

OK... read somewhere that people see lots of stuff when they put crystals on their forehead (3rd eye chakra area)... says Moldavite works best but don't have one yet (soon)... damn stuff is so expensive, was able to win one for cheap... just hope its the real deal.

Anyways just to test the theory...

Aqua Aura Pendulum on my forehead!!
Results... mmk I close my eyes and concentrate on the crystal place on top of my forehead I do see white light clearly in the dark but... I guess I was tired... less than 5 minutes and I'm in sleep mode, no dreams or don't remember seeing any dreams. Funny part is I wake up this morning and right after I wake up I close my eyes and I can see the room clearly even with the closed eye... Wonder if that has anything to do with the effect...

Tonight gonna try the Smoky Quartz

Then Clear Quartz... then once I get moldavite try it with that!

meditation... no sleep but no results again

Tried 20 minute meditation... this time I tried a method I learned on youtube to sit in a meditation position like you see the buddhist monk sits, and placing your hand together connecting your thumb and feeling the breath coming in/out of your stomach and concentrating on the breath only, resulting in my mind to be clear and dropped lower to where I am concentrating...

OK... that part kind of worked... but nothing happened yet, some websites and readings say it takes 10 minutes to get into the meditative state, so 20 minutes was maybe not enough... meh it was already 1:30AM and didn't want to overdo it and sleep again.

Gonna try over this weekend...

Clearing your thoughts before meditation

I'm pretty damn sure I'm not the only one out there that can clear your thoughts while trying to ground, or do meditation... I always end up thinking something while trying to clear my thoughts...

I have to stop to think... but how do you stop your thinking process... to not to think...

I know I wasn't like this before... dunno why it's like this now... I can't imagine anything or see/feel anything clearly. vividly I was able to during John's beginners class but was that because his place was clear of negative energy??? I try at home to see if I can see what I saw at John's place... and nothing... I have to stop trying and just relax but... it never works... I always end up thinking/feeling that something is near me and I have to be cautious....

Meditation 05/04/09

Tried meditation again, this time I didn't end up sleeping but wasn't able to achieve much... I think...

I might of heard something but not sure if that was something in the room, or actually a message I heard... can't remember it was... need to make sure to have pen/paper ready to take down these messages. Another thing I noticed was my head between my eye brows were getting itchy... wonder that means, or is it just an itch from bug or something bugging me like hair??

Heard of channeling your spirit guides and having them answer questions you put on paper, or type on screen. Wonder how hard that is to do? Would be interesting stuff to try out.

Oh, and one cool stuff, John called me today and told me that Intermediate class is starting this Saturday! More cool stuff to learn!!!

Meditation 05/03/09

Nothing... nothing again... i tried meditation without music and with music and nothing came into my view... no image, no sound, nothing, felt relaxed but my back hurts, dunno why... 


My Aqua Aura Pendulum... damn top came off so I need to super glue it to get the chain on... 


Other than that this weekend bought a book "Creative Visualization" by Shakti Gawain. Good book but again it tells you to imagine a ________ and it will manifest... I need to know HOW to create the image, so far it's not helping.. gotta read through the book more. I will let you know if I find anything interesting from here.

Meditation 05/02/09

Let's see if this is gonna work tonight... goal is just 1 hour to 1.5 hour...

I'll try holding aqua aura and smoky quartz pendulums in each hand to see if that will help increase the spiritual powers within me to be able to see or get something...

EDIT: 
OK tried meditation for 1 hour using the video below, it made my forehead tingle and thought maybe it was a sign for my third eye trying to open up... but the harder I think about it the more it didn't work... and the tingle feeling went away... Gotta remember not to think about it and just go with the flow, maybe tonight... 

Meditation.... not... Sleep yes...

OK I put my son to sleep, ready for doing tonights medi....  zzzzzzzz Slept on the ground and woke up at 3AM...

At least for this time I just received the clear crystal quartz pyramid so I followed the instruction on some sites to clean with water let it natural dry and absorb the light energy from the sun. Placed the pyramid by my solar plexis chakra and lay down for 30 minutes or longer... was definitely longer than 30 minutes LOL.

How do I feel after?... I dunno... feel normal, same? Oh but I noticed one thing which was a bit trippy, when I woke up at 3AM first thing I saw was everything like you see with those 3D glasses, not blurred but you can see all lights flashing out more, kind of like aura. Was only for first 5 minutes or so, but looked cool... but then again that could be just something from sleeping weird in the living room.

I also received my Aqua Aura Pendulum, it's smaller than I expected it to be and the chain on it a lot longer, dunno if that makes any difference but either way it's nice looking and it does work for me. Aqua Aura is supposed to open up spiritual and open up my throat chakra more to increase communication and express my inner feelings which I need to do a lot more and hopefully it helps me out a bit.

Images not mine, I just picked it up from google images but they look exactly like them.

whats on my mind 04-29-09

About to start my meditation today... I hope I don't end up sleeping again... always end up sleeping while trying to listen to binaural or smooth meditation music... I get too relaxed...

Also need to figure out how to increase imagery/imagination/creativity wonder how thats gonna turn out... gonna try image my own hand while closing my eyes... supposed to work... we'll see.

EDIT:
OK finished my 1.5 hour meditation... felt tingly feeling around my body but nothing other than that. I was not able to see any image or flashes this time around.

Should note, my pendulum is telling me all my chakra's are open and spinning good, so asked Uriel to see if he can come into my dreams tonight to talk to me so I can learn more, pendulum showed yes. I hope to see him again, he was awesome/cool looking angel.

EDIT 2:

... no dreams... or don't remember about them...