Whats on my mind 06-08-09

Tomorrow (technically today in Japan) is my bro's birthday... he not back to his house till tomorrow... wonder whats he doing right now.

Fucking rent in Torrance is way too high... I just want 2 bed 2 bath in torrance school district so my son can go into a good school but the rental is from $2000+ ...how the hell are people affording these... if you were to pay $2000 wouldn't it make more sense to buy a home....... **sigh** So hard to find a home with hour cut from work...

What I saw when I closed my eyes this morning - saw fishes? something swimming, and looked like gears turning... then weird geometrical shapes. Which reminds me... when I close my eyes and push my eye lids down (pushing the eye balls a bit) I see geometrical shapes... squares, pentagons, triangles, all in different directions but connected, kind of like stained glass art but without colors, just white and black, maybe some light vivid colors of green red, and blue... it's really pretty and cool looking... I know I shouldn't do this too much... hehe but it's cool... only problem with when opening my eyes I have to let it close my eyes for a bit longer so the images go away before opening or it will hurt sometimes.

Hmmm what else... oh last night I tried the mirror spirit guide thing again... stared at my own self image on the mirror at one specific point and saw aura around me, and people like figures around me moving... now that just illusion or real??